Current mood:	drunk
Current music:	Let's Stay Together - Jenny Carson and DJ Chenette

what an honor

Ohhh I don't want to go home. Life will be so much different back in Massachusetts and I don't know that I want to go back to the past when my mind is already so far in the future. It will be very hard, I can already tell: I don't remember how to sleep alone anymore and I don't want to have cold hands like I did before because there was no one back home to warm them. Since i've been at Green Mountain, i've let go of a lot of things and one of them is hate. This is something that I do not want to re-learn when I go home because I am tired of being sad, regardless of where I am. I am afraid I am not strong enough to take the initiative to allow myself to live by my standards, whatever I decide they will be. The sad truth is that I was lost before I came here, and here I feel found. 

Now I know what I need from life. As my move to Chicago becomes more and more permanent, I get second thoughts about whether or not I am doing the right thing. Then I tell myself to "shut up" because being comfortable is nice, but i'm starting to gather moss and i'm too young to stop rolling along. 

"Always my favorite".